About eight months ago I was doing one of my inner ear meditations when I reached a depth never before known. I heard the progression of sounds leading up to a sound much like thunder, which I knew was to be met with fearlessness. I learned this meditation from "the Five Tibetans" by Mark Kilham, a book on Kundalini yoga and meditation. The result was like that to be expected, absorbtion in a transcendental and interconnected intelligence.
What followed was four months of completely irrational behavior which I have interpreted as a loss of self. I gave away all my possessions, became homeless, and started wandering the streets, absorbed in the deeply intricate patterns of energy all around me. I learned a great deal of inner truth, the power of belief, and the metaphysical structure of the universe, altogether a insight of a process of the self creating the universe for the individual entity. I believe the name for the enrapturement is also known as omniscience. After four months I ended up beginning to feel the pressures of my state of being, I saw everything in my life was gone and felt the pains of acting in a super-ego way towards my beloved friends. By super-ego I mean that the whole world seemed synchronistic and created just for me, leading me to steal from people I loved. Eventually I stole a car and drove aimlessly until stopping in a gas station and helping myself to everything I wanted.
The last four months I spent in jail, going through a process of dreaming, meditation, and contemplation, which seemed to heal my mind. Now my thoughts are normal, my actions are rational and I have returned to my normal compassionate respectful self. I wanted to post this to see if anyone else has had or heard of similar such experiences.
The truth is that everything happened seemed to have a basis in logical understanding, and I came to understand the ascension through the chakras and consciousness as a process of one creating their own universe, which happens in a karmic fashion while here in this life journey. Sort of like we are each a seed of creation, and this life on Earth is the pivotal turning point for many of us, and a point of recycling through the life process for others. Pretty exciting stuff.
I just wonder if anyone else has had a lapse into psycosis of sorts as a result of kundalini yoga and meditation. I would love to hear your thoughts.